Mama's Not Organized

THURSDAY! Get that trash to the curb, folks. I want to talk about screen time. I honestly struggle, I find myself glued to TikTok periodically, drawn to it throughout the day. I open it when I wake up, I watch videos on it as I fall asleep. How am I supposed to limit Addison's screen time when I find myself so glued to a screen? Kurt comes home, and the TV gets turned on. There is always some sort of visual stimulus going on, it seems. I also want to talk about the possibility that I might move on from Blogger, possibly to Substack. I'm also thinking about deleting Instagram, I already removed the Facebook app from my phone. I'm trying to do what I can to say a big "fuck you" to META without actually saying it. Anyway, happy Thursday! If today is bin day for you too, make sure your bins are out!

Today is Wednesday, hello. I am absolutely bummed out. I have one thing every month—book club. I couldn’t go last month because Addi didn’t feel good, and I can’t go this month because the sitter can’t watch her. I baked cookies and pastries for it. I feel absolutely hollow. Sometimes, it’s hard to keep up with the things that make us feel like ourselves, especially as a parent. Here’s hoping next month works out better. Take care. 

Hello, possible reader! I’m not going to lie—I have no motivation or desire to do much of anything right now. But my daughter is taken care of, so at least there’s that. Yesterday, I didn’t work out, and I kind of feel like a failure because of it. I did manage to do some dishes today and cleaned part of the kitchen, so it’s not a total loss. I think I’m dehydrated. I also made two separate lunches for Addi. The first time, she seemed really tired, so I put her down for a nap. When she woke up, I made her grilled cheese instead. She still didn’t want to eat. Teething sucks. I have so much to do that I can’t get myself to do anything. Addi has sores on her bottom from sitting too long on the potty seat, so we’re taking a break until they heal. When we start again, we’ll do shorter and fewer stints on the potty. She doesn’t need to be potty trained by two. That was too ambitious, and I don’t think I was consistent enough anyway. Some days I skipped when life felt too overwhelming or when...

Monday. Hello.  Addi only peed in one pair of training panties today! From get-up to nap time, we had her sit on the potty every 20 minutes for 1–2 episodes of Bluey. I even made tiny little cookies as her potty-in-the-potty reward. As per usual, she’s napping while I write this, and I’m cleaning up the guest room. I’ve been thinking a lot lately, and I’m really bummed about SCOTUS banning TikTok. I don’t believe it’s actually a “national security threat.” It feels more like an attempt to limit our constitutional right to free speech. Not to get political, but there’s a certain mango-colored man who is way more of a threat to our country than an app where people do fun, silly little dances. Anyway, I’m cleaning the guest room. This time, I actually have ample warning that my brother is coming, so it won’t be a maze in here. The sheets are clean, and he’ll have a clean blanket, too. I also need to figure out how to treat the basement floor with enzyme cleaner before my mom’s dog sta...

Hi! It’s Sunday—happy Sunday! We tried potty training underwear with Addison today for the first time and quickly learned she doesn’t give a single hoot about the wet feeling against her skin. She peed in both pairs we put her in and didn’t care even a little about the sensation. So, she’s back in a diaper for nap time. Duck decided last night to be naughty and peed on my yoga mat, Addi’s shoes, the leaf rug my aunt made for her, and various other baby-related things in the house. Honestly, I’m so sick of his behavior since we brought our girl home. Addison is napping, I did a recovery day workout, and I’m listening to an audiobook while gearing up to bake some cookies. I have my period for the first time since September 2023, after getting my IUD in July of that same year. I’m thinking of making chocolate chip cookies with a bit of instant coffee mixed into the batter, but I haven’t decided for sure yet. I just want something comforting and warm. My gel polish is coming off, so I’m al...

People, places, pets, and thing! I have just completed my second workout of the day, and I even meditated! Addison is napping, Kurt and Duck are relaxing, and I baked mini banana bread muffins along with a loaf of banana bread. Kurt ate almost all the chocolate chips, so I improvised and used the leftover toppings from the pavlova. Fingers very much crossed. Kurt is smoking a beef tenderloin for dinner, and I haven’t decided on sides yet. For now, I’m sitting, catching my breath, and then I’m planning to take a super hot shower, oil pull, brush my teeth, do my skincare routine, and floss. Short post today, but hey, it’s the weekend. Peace out, friends!

Hello, hello, hello! I am currently gearing up to exercise—boobs in what is essentially a vice grip against my chest, leggings on, hair in a ponytail at the top of my head. Let’s fucking go. Only problem is I do not want to. I mean, I do. But I don’t. Addison is in her crib (though she’s not asleep), and the laundry is going in both the washer and dryer. I know that once I get over myself and just do it, I’ll feel better, but man, my legs are still sore from yesterday. Practice makes progress, though, right? I tried tracking calories yesterday for the first time and realized, before dinner, that I’m just not eating enough. Crazy, right? You wouldn’t be able to tell by looking at me. As we were thinking about dinner, I found out I needed to eat at least 800 more calories just to hit a minimum for the day. Did you know that if your caloric intake isn’t high enough, you won’t lose weight? It’s wild. How does that even make sense? Historically, I guess I haven’t eaten enough. Maybe that’s ...

Hello, dear kind reader.  I just did a HIIT workout I haven't done since I was actually in shape. And wow, it really made me realize how much I've let my fitness slip. I couldn't even find proper workout clothes, so I ended up doing the whole thing in maternity leggings and a pumping bra—why did I think this was a good idea? But honestly, I could have waited, but I knew if I didn’t do it now, I’d keep putting it off. The truth is, I needed to do it. My toddler is napping, so there was no time like the present. I went for a 15-minute beginner HIIT workout, and even though I’m not in the shape I used to be, it felt so good to move my body again. It wasn’t perfect, but it was exactly what I needed. I am trying so hard to just be better this year: workout at least a little every day, eat better. I'm doing dry January, as I’ve already mentioned in prior posts, but I honestly hope this does for me what it has in the past. I want to have a better outlook on not only life but a...

Happy Wednesday, everyone! Today was the first day back at ECFE, and it brought all the feelings. My usual brave, confident little girl was extra snuggly and just wanted her mama. That is, until snack time—then she was more than happy for me to step aside so she could focus on her food. I love her so much. She decided that when I went to the bathroom that she needed to ransack the bag I left on the floor with the leftovers and open the bottle of coffee creamer and dump it EVERYWHERE, them she lay on the floor and tried picking it up. Toddlers, man. Toddlers. The snacks I made were a hit with the moms, which felt amazing. I also got to vent about some personal things I wouldn’t share online, and it reminded me how much I appreciate the support of my little mom community. They’ve got my back, and I’m so grateful. On a less fun note, I’ve had a headache all day. I just took what I call a “depression shower”—a super-hot shower where I mostly sit on the floor and let the lava-te...

Hi guys! I’m baking today—mini pavlovas and cheese danishes for tomorrow, which is the first day back at ECFE! I’m so stoked. Right now, I’m also enjoying some lunch: leftover big ass salad and cucumber salad. It’s so delicious, and I’m genuinely feeling proud of myself this year. Back to baking—pavlovas are in the oven now! I used almond and vanilla extract, and tomorrow I’ll whip up some cream to go with them. I’m also bringing toppings like banana slices, strawberry slices, toasted coconut, maple cream, and chocolate chips for people to choose from. I’m also making mini cheese danishes! Oh, and I found non-alcoholic Kahlua coffee creamer, which I’m pretty excited about. Addison is napping, and when she wakes up, I’ll probably be done baking, but she’s going to help me make dinner—nice cottage pie! I’m also still going strong with my goals for the year. I’ve been working out every day wven if just for a few minutes, and I’m still doing dry January! I'm also keeping up with this b...

Hello, happy Monday to everyone—except the woman who coughed directly in my toddler's face at the grocery store. For one: ew. For two: cover your mouth. If Addi gets sick, then I’ll get sick, and my asthmatic ass struggles with any kind of respiratory illness, especially while on immunosuppressants. I have many more thoughts, but they’re not exactly polite. On a brighter note, Addi had her two-year appointment today, and she absolutely rocked it! She was so patient during the weight, blood pressure, and height checks. Last appointment, she was in the 9th percentile for height, and now she’s up to the 22nd! She also had her finger pricked to check her lead levels (we’re waiting for the results), and even for that, she stayed calm. Her reward? A bandaid with dogs and balls on it, which of course meant she had to “woof!” at her finger. For dinner, we’re having a big ass salad with pork chops, sautéed onions and peppers, sweet potatoes, and homemade bacon dressing. Fingers crossed it’s...

Sunday, cleaning Sunday! Hello friends, family, pets, and acquaintances! Today, let’s talk about the infamous junk drawer—the ultimate catch-all for random screws, bolts, cords, tape, scissors, and even those manuals you might never use. I just tackled ours, and let me tell you, it was overdue. The amount of actual trash I found—wrappers, broken plastic bits, and an empty tape roll—was wild. After sorting everything, the drawer finally has some order. Tools are organized towards the back, and clear containers now hold those random Allen wrenches, screws, and cords. Turns out we have three spare phone charging blocks. Who knew? In other news, today is the fifth day of the new year! I’ve committed to dry January—kind of funny since I don’t drink much, just a few glasses of wine a week. But as I’m focusing on becoming a healthier version of myself, I figured, “Why not?” Last night, I really wanted a glass of wine with dinner but made a juice cocktail instead: coconut water, orange juice, ...

 Happy weekend, friends! This morning started off strong with pancakes for breakfast—Addi even helped make them! She’s my favorite little helper and, big news, she went potty in the potty today! I managed to squeeze in a short workout before diving into dinner prep. I’m so excited about tonight’s meal: a pot pie with a sourdough crust! I’m trying something a bit different this time. First, I dredged the chicken chunks in seasoned flour and fried them up. Then, I removed the chicken, sautéed the mirepoix, added the chicken back in, and poured in some broth to bring it all together before making the crust. Speaking of sustainability, I’ve started saving all my vegetable scraps in a gallon freezer bag to make homemade broth. It’s a small step, but I’m hoping it’ll help me be more sustainable this year. That’s been our day so far—how’s your weekend going?

Happy Friday! Today has been a day, for sure. Started with a migraine so we missed story time, after breakfast and a snack we went to the grocery store after I convinced Addi to put on her jacket. The only bra I could find was an extreme plunge strapless bra. Which broke when we got to the store. Free the nip, if you will. Got everything I went for. Except eggs. Went to the liquor store, Addi told Rani "Bye! Love you, miss you!" Gave Addi lunch and put her for a nap. Defrosted pork chops, rearranged the kitchen, did dishes, did a workout, oil pulled, and took an everything shower. I also have a pan sitting with baking powder, soap, salt, and vinegar to hopefully get it de-gunked. Wish me luck. Its the drip pan for the air fryer, and i have neglected it too long.  I am going to make stuffed pork chops for dinner with couscous and parmesan asparagus. Duck and I are watching big bang theory until Addi gets up, then we are going to go over the alphabet song and our numbers while...

I started writing yesterday's post as I lay in bed after taking my sleep aid, so of course I fell asleep with this app open and the post half written, so let us try it again.  Today is Thursday, the second day of 2025! Yesterday i tried to get in a workout, which didnt go as i planned between being massively out of shape, and my daughter trying her best to lay under me. Still ended up with sore abs that carried over into today! Addi and I also went over an educational poster about colors, played with her toys, watched some Bluey, and overall just enjoyed our time together. She has been doing something new that I am absolutely in love with, she spreads her are wide, then bends her elbows and pats her chest while saying "come here." To ask us for a hug, it is truly the sweetest thing ever. She has also started calling me 'Tay' though, so you win some, you lose some. Kurt smoked/ grilled some steaks and potatoes, and I was in charge of making the crab legs, you know,...